Fitness professional turned “health” obsessed, orthorexic, anxious, disordered eating bikini model who never quite felt “good enough”. Believing that the key to life’s happiness was to achieve “perfection”.
And stopping at absolutely nothing to achieve it.
So I did it. I achieved perfection. AND all the attention that I thought I so desperately needed! “Wow Asha, you look SO good!” “Can you help ME to look like that?!” “I bet you feel AMAZING!” …
What no one knew is that I had never felt more UNhappy or UNhealthy in my entire life.
I was stuck in this mindset of comparison, restriction, guilt and self-doubt. Sacrificing precious years of my LIFE constantly trying to change who I was – to achieve this unrealistic expectation of what healthy should LOOK like from the outside!
Why couldn’t I just be ME..?!
It took hitting my rock bottom, my body completely shutting down and losing all love for life to realise that it just wasn’t worth it.